Foomismus, Mga Umaapaw at Samu't Saring Ideya Mula sa Nagtatalong Kamalayan

2006-02-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

Delusional I believe I can cure it all for you, dear
Coax or trick or drive or drag the demons from you
Make it right for you sleeping beauty
Truly thought I can magically heal you

You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to rescue
Sleeping Beauty

Drunk on ego
Truly thought I could make it right
If I kissed you one more time to
Help you face the nightmare
But you're far too poisoned for me
Such a fool to think that I can wake you from your slumber
That I could actually heal you

Sleeping Beauty
Poisoned and hopeless

You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to find a way to comfort you
Far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
And hiding from some poisoned memory

Poisoned and hopeless
Sleeping Beauty

KASI

2006-01-24T11:22:00.000+08:00

Makipot ang daan
Sagabal
May mga harang na dapat iwasan

Malabo ang paningin
Madilim
Nabasag kasi ang aking salamin

Hindi makatanaw
Ligaw
Bakit di kasi lumabas ang araw

Walang mapuntahan
Lito
Hindi pa nasanay sa ganito

Sa pagtulog naiinip
Managinip
Bakit kasi kailangang mag-isip

Takot, kahit walang multo
Alam ko
Marami lang kasing namatay sa ganito

Sumabak kahit [na] masakit
Pag-ibig
Bakit kasi kailangang ito ang manaig

diferent story

2006-01-24T11:20:00.000+08:00

Maybe in another time
Or under a different sign
There would be a different life

Maybe in another place
I’m running on a different chase
And taking a different way

Maybe in another world
I’m singing a different song
Oh maybe…just maybe…

I wish I could be
Somebody else but me
Then maybe there would be…
A different story

A Reprise

2006-01-24T11:15:00.000+08:00

If I’m with you when you cry
Don’t put me behind and fly
Tears won’t drown the draggled names
Not all of us are the same

It’s difficult to be downcast
Because this won’t go by fast
So I looked at you alone and bare
Then I wonder if you’re aware

Do you see me?

Well one day I let myself clear
Just to test the things I fear
To catch a sight inside you
To see if my delusion is true

Expect not from once a broken heart
Though it seems to have healed
Take heed to not tear it apart
Once more, lest I be killed

And I see you.

One day I’ll cast myself to you
To defy old things with the new
To let eyes see that once blind
To let me know what’s in your mind

I hope there’s more than nothing

TO JULIET

2006-01-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

Dear Juliet,

In a few months you’ll be going away
from my “side”—
a side which is self-made
and self-defined,
and you are not aware of that.
That’s a positive assumption
that I bravely formulated
but surely hate.
Because I always wish
that you know that you are on my side.
O well…

For quite a long while now
I’ve been alone,
and in a few more while
I’ll be more alone.
I’ll be more and will be less.
Or have none
and be nothing at all.
Pity.

In a few months you’ll be going away
and I wish that you’ll be back
even for just one day
and that day would be the same day
that I am brave enough
to tell you these and more.
One day is all I need
to let you know all these and more.
I wish I was brave enough yesterday.
Wishes are bittersweet escapes.
Damn it.

I’m like a fugitive
who always escapes.
It’s like being free in a very big cage.
A bird in an aviary.
Free but confined.
I escape and I am still guilty.
I can escape from myself
but not from you.
I am caught
and in a few months
I need to escape once again—
for my own sake.
Or maybe within these few months
I would escape
and tell you the “side” story.
Now I would wish
that when I do that,
that won’t be our sad story.
I sigh.

Oh well.
Who knows?
Who would know?
Just us?
I’m afraid not.
Because they’re also reading this
and will probably tell you these.

Yours alone,
Not your Romeo

untitled

2006-01-24T11:07:00.000+08:00

I chased the sun today
But he got away
The moon could lit my way
But she wouldn’t stay

So I faced the man today
But he had nothing to say
I thought he should teach the way
But he tied me down and let me stay

I shouted for some attention
My voice just echoed back at me
I started my own revolution
Yet I am still not free

Now I can’t chase the sun at any day
He will always be away
The moon would never lit my way
‘Cause she would never ever stay.

Parallelism

2005-05-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

Parallel lines
Parallel lines have the same steepness
Parallel lines will never intersect
But in [my] perspective they seem to meet
Somewhere along the horizon
The trick of illusion, my illusion.
Things only seem...

That's what we are
parallel lines, parallel lives
Our fate will never intersect
My perspective is just mine to see
I may seek that point where our lines seem to meet
But I shall never find it
For the horizon is where all things vanish
Even the sun...

Solution
There might be a solution
I could ask the gods to change my equation
So the slope of my life would be new
Not the same as of you
Then and only then we would really meet
And never be parallel again.

No to parallelism!!!

Nawawala

2005-05-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

Di maipaliwanag
ang mga nararamdaman
Di mahuhukay
ang malalim na isipan

Dahil...

Ako ay nabibilang
Sa mga nawawalang nilalang
Ang aking kamalayan hindi matagpuan
Kahit saan, anumang paraan, kahit kailan.

Kung mahawakan mo ang aking kalul'wa
'Wag mo na itong bitiwan
Nang sa gayon akin namang masulyapan
Ang sariling di pa nahahagkan.

Kung matagpuan mo
Ang ligaw kong kamalayan
Hiling ay atangan ito
Sa mga katanungang pasan.

Ngunit kung sakali...

Saan mo dadalhin?
Saan ito aakayin?
Sa kasagutan ba?
O sa mas masukal na alinlangan.

Ngayon...

Sino ako?
Bakit ako?
Minsan...tayo...
Paano ba?
Tama ba?
Madalas...bobo.

Maraming nabibilang
Sa aking mundo
Nawawala, di makita
Kabilang ka ba dito?